Darkness settles all around me once more. The hairs on my skin stand up, embracing the cold breeze.
I turn around, trying unsuccessfully to see the path I've crossed in my journey so far. As always, it is a futile effort. The roads are lost forever in the mist of lost time and innocence. The incessant rains add to the tableau, drowning out any impressions my feet may have left behind...of the paths I have taken till now in my life.
I close my eyes. And the darkness recedes. In my mind's eye, the roads become clearer. I can see faintly the paths I've chosen, the short-cuts I have taken up until this point. Some have hastened my journey while others have conversely held me back. Road signs I have trusted in these never ending woods - they were called friends and family in another world - have helped me along at times when I was lost but they have also been inanimate at times when I needed them most... when I needed a shoulder to lean on.
I hear the rustle of the wind amongst the leaves... there are voices amongst them. They are calling to me, egging me on. They tell me I'm on the right path, then point me in a dozen different directions, urging me to follow them all. They claim to want to help me. I know not whom to trust... whom to follow.
In the distance, with my eyes shut, I see a light... a faint glow which is akin to a thousand fireflies in the darkness. It is to this light I shall move when dawn beckons. I don't know why I choose it or what it is or represents. I just know I should follow it. I have heard whispers in the past, speaking of this light.
Some call it 'destiny', some call it 'love', some call it 'success', some call it 'hope'.
Some call it 'God'.
I have not named it yet, for I have yet to see the light as clearly as others. But I am getting there. And when I do and I know it's name, then I shall be one with the woods.
And I, in turn, shall take my place as one of the voices and guide you in your journey through these dark woods called life.
I open my eyes and the light is gone but the darkness persists. I hear the woods whispering once more. They tell me it is time to rest. Tomorrow is a new day. A new step forward.
A step closer to a light I cannot see yet.
Dear Roshan,
ReplyDeleteGood Evening!
The woods are lovely,deep and dark....
I wish I can go for a long walk among these tall trees.
I loved your lines and can relate so well......
Hope and pray you have chosen the right path and God Bless You to be a bright light in the life of your dear and near ones!
And once you name the guiding force,let me know.:)
Wishing you a beautiful evening,
Sasneham,
Anu
Interesting read!
ReplyDeleteAnu, Hope and pray indeed.. as for my guiding force, well.. not a darn clue yet.. so will keep u posted on that one.
ReplyDeleteRohan, thanks man
Wow Roshan!
ReplyDeleteThough I have yet to know if this is fiction or has traces of aap-beeti...
But it does make a beautiful read...
I was wondering what you are getting at...and in the end it left me with a sense of completion!
Brilliant, as always:-)
This is an apt summation of every Seeker's quest.
ReplyDeleteThe search mostly remains eternal. But, it is always the journey that counts; that nanosecond of realisation; the sense of discovery of this mystical light "akin to a thousand fireflies;" the hope that the dark night lies in wait of the dawning day.
Beautiful piece, this one, a whole new facet to yourself. And mez likes it!
:)
Suruchi... there is definitely a lot of fact amongst the fiction in this post atleast.
ReplyDeleteAnkita, I wonder about the whole new facet. I guess its just based on the mood at the moment of writing... sometimes the sensitive side gets buried under the humor, sometimes vice versa, right ?
It does.. it does :)
ReplyDeleteGood post. Wonderfully written. I also liked your blog sub-title, There is a fly in my soup again, Mr God.....superb
ReplyDeleteThanks Joshi... Nearly 5yrs ago, while making this blog, a friend had told me to add a witty headline.. This was what came to mind at that moment... Even though I've changed the blog look over a 100 times in these last few yrs, the title remains the same.
ReplyDeletehmm... thats the light that keeps all of us going...only am starting to worry if am hallucinating.. :| the closer i reach ...the further it moves away...
ReplyDeletei think am getting a hold of moving arnd in tis darkness.
u write awsomely well doc :)
seems like I'm going through much the same, Anon... I kind of figure others are too. Can't even say 'the closer i reach' since i don't know my light yet... But yes, am definitely getting used to walking around in the darkness.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Anon.. Incidentally, do you have a name besides Anonymous ? :)
yea yea i do :) am ur new twitter freind ;)
ReplyDeleteohhhhh.. the Hamsa Dhwani-an :)
ReplyDeleteOptimistic n inspiring..searchin 4 dat ray of light..need not name it..hope or faith or God..until 1 is not giving up :)
ReplyDeleteexactly...hit the nail on the head, Beyond Horizon..
ReplyDeleteBeautiful and very well written.
ReplyDeleteThe moment one truly believes in GOD, he becomes one with him. That is after all everyone's final destination isn't it?
Actually, thats just the point I wanted to talk about... to each the goals are different. what they seek in life at different points of time vary, don't they ? So is it necessary to say God is the final destination.. I wonder abt that...
ReplyDeleteBeautiful..!
ReplyDeletethanks mate...
ReplyDeleteStunning. I'm bookmarking this one.
ReplyDeleteDeboshree... thanks. What can i say ? It reflects my state of mind... and probably many more people feel the same way.. more than even I imagined.
ReplyDeleteYou've aptly captured life and the dilemmas which cross our minds at various points in time. Well, that is the way life is. Enjoy the journey and hopefully you will reach the final destination someday.
ReplyDeletetrue... certainly hope so.
DeleteVery Christopher Nolan.
ReplyDeleteNow if only the paycheque were similar to his :D
DeleteWe all relate to it. Life is a labyrinth and we are often tempted to follow what we have opted our earlier. The most interesting thing is that it's a never ending experience. We are always on the run...
ReplyDeleteExactly... there is no fixed end game, is there. Every 'end' is just a new phase.. a new turn to take.
DeleteWhen it comes from the heart it reaches other hearts. Faith is all about dealing with the pain and coping with the darkness until some light returns.
ReplyDeleteTrue... Faith is the key.. it is never easy though, sadly. Especially when you dont know the road you are taking.
DeleteRosh,
ReplyDeleteeverybody is travelling in the same path. nobody knows wats in store for them. Just have faith in yourself. that is the force which is driving us. just relax buddy everything will go well
Riyaz
Ya.. gotta have faith in something atleast I guess. Never easy though.
DeleteWow it started as an intriguing post and slowly things became clearer as you kept writing :)
ReplyDeleteLife is a mystery and we can unravel it very slowly thread by thread as we travel and yes Faith is the guiding light in this journey...
Its the slow unraveling that gets to me.. the not knowing what destiny has in store.
DeleteThis is exactly how it is with me these days . thank you so much for sharing it.....
ReplyDeleteWhat is really sad is that this post is nearly 3 years old and I can still relate to it. Wonder when we'll be more sure in the woods.
DeleteThanks for the post! I love the way you shared the thoughts , can relate to it so well......
ReplyDeleteGood one, but sad to know that even after 3 years u could still relate to it :( hope n wish many colorful lights in ur life :)
ReplyDeletetouchwood... maybe a better day is around the corner..
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