Better late than never, eh, Mr God ?

`Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!' I shrieked upstarting -

`Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken! - quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!
'Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

- "The Raven"

Edgar Allen Poe

The Broken Road is finally crossed.

Marked with a sign and sealed in silence, the final act of the play came to an end today. There was no theatrical bow, no standing ovation, no crocodile tears. The memories, so few and sour tasting, have long receded, replaced by a yearning for a true heart's love and care.. or just a desire to be free again. Just the knowledge endures that I have finally laid to rest the biggest folly I have forced my family to endure. A knowledge that I would now carry a tainted tag for the rest of my life.
A knowledge that I am finally free.

As for the scars ? They are, after all, scars. They will remain.

They will remain to teach me that time cannot be turned back, faults cannot be undone, a broken trust never regained.

They will remain to show me how a decade of feelings can be wiped away in but a moment of impulsiveness, a pure heart broken to fulfill another's lie, a kind heart's silent prayers unheard by me in the roar of a Living God's words.

They will remain to remind me that not every relationship is based on honesty and trust like I am so used to expecting with all my friends, that for some, the end does indeed justify the means, that not all love stories are... love stories.

But mostly, these scars will remain in the hope, that, maybe, just maybe, someday they can teach me to be a better judge of character.
Till that day comes, I shall walk this path the same way I have had to walk these last couple of years..

Alone amidst a crowd.

Oh, what the heck !! Who am I kidding ?

I AM FREEEEEE !!!

( to be followed by a chorus of the Austin Powers theme song by you guys while I jig along... )